Updating my life

I feel the urge or need to write about my thoughts today.  Everything needs to be put in perspective on this 10th day of July 2016.  Maybe part of my life review today is because my birthday is on the 12th, not a big deal - my 60th was a year ago and I had a great time last year.  Everyone remembered and I was treated like a queen all of July 2015.  My life at the lake condo was new, my first summer here, and I was still healthy before the muscle issue.  Now I'm 90% healed.

Honestly, I'm missing people.  Sundays are always the remembrance days for me out of the whole week.  I miss my husband, more than 2 years gone.  I miss my sister, more than 4 years gone.  It's like my sis and I were together yesterday getting ready to go to the theater for a movie on cheap Tuesday, which we did quite often...not because we were stingy and picked Tuesdays but because we had priorities and we were saving money:)  I don't want to think about the way she died, suddenly diagnosed with a brain tumor and then leaving this Earth 6 months later in 2012  Every day I sat by her side, changing the tv channels because she couldn't think, couldn't speak with clear words, just her own made up words mainly, but...

I have to forget about that time.  Memories are not good and hopefully in years memories will change.  My last uncle died in March this year and my last aunt went to the great beyond a few weeks ago, end of May.  Too much death last few years.  I'm near tears today off and on ...but it's a good life, and I'm fortunate.

I love living here at the resort, so peaceful. " Live alone in a paradise that makes me think of two.  Love lost, such a cost, give me things that don't get lost, like a coin that won't get tossed, rolling home to you."  Neil Young's song "Old Man".  I remember singing that song back in the 1970's when I was a teen, now I'm almost a senior citizen.  Just like I often sang Van Morrison's "Tupelo Honey" or the Elton John/Bernie Taupin lyrics from the album "Tumbleweed Connection" song "Country" Comfort".  The words go something like this "I saw Grandma yesterday down at the store, You know she's really doing fine for 84.  She asked me if sometime I'd fix her barn.  She needs a helping hand to run the farm.".  Check them if you read this okay?

I have a good week planned, with celebration, relatives and friends.  Weather has improved after a week of rain off and on.  I'd like to say more about me because it's unfair to people who lay it all on the table and here's the mystery woman without a real name on Facebook or a blog.  I just can't reveal all.  My alias at Facebook is for my book series and even for that special interest I've not updated it recently.

I help my 87 year old mother a lot although she still lives in her own home in a gated community.  We travel together.  My education is English major at university level, but I abandoned it and married early. My past work history was culinary school in San Francisco, California back in the 1980's.  Reason for going was I liked cooking and wanted a good school on my resume.  My idea came to fruition and I spent many years as chef in world class hotels in Canada.  My husband and I were apart off and on.  I realized chef work was going to be too physically demanding as I reached my mid 40's so I went back to college and obtained an honors diploma in Tourism and was a travel agent for awhile, then back to being a chef and travel agent, two jobs for many years.  Here's some pics, Oahu 2015 when I went with Mom.

Me at the Duke statue, Honolulu

Me at Waikiki, surfing - always swim with a buddy - first rule of water safety!

Me at the Byodo-In Temple, Oahu

As far as my identity, just go with it, please.  I want this separate identity as my refuge because otherwise, Facebook or whatever I'd have former schoolmates, workmates etc asking to be my friend and no way would I refuse them online - I just can't.  I'd also have men I knew casually from my past try to romance me. They say I'm sexy.  Many have tried to bed me and all have failed...but I'm willing to get into a new relationship.  I'd have no problem finding a lover ...but I'm super selective and others say I'm intelligent. I'd rather be known for being kind though.  I believe intelligence and kindness go hand in hand.

I need a man with an interest in English Literature, a kind man, a man who knows a lot about music and loves nature and animal rights, environmental causes.  Not a lot to ask imo.  Oh yes, and a sense of humor like me and he would like to travel to warm climates:)  And maybe have the money to do that because most men don't!  I have my own funds and a house paid for, no mortgage, and I have a Jeep for those off road nature adventures.

 My fantasy book series is my escape and my name MsMerlina is my safety net.  A few people know who I am and that's good for now.  If you want to know more about me - you know who you are!! - just direct message me at Twitter and we'll go from there, thanks!  Now that I've spilled my feelings, I don't have to worry because my followers are few on Twitter, intentionally, to help me remain MsMerlina and not Lou N of Lake Country!

Thanks for reading and please feel free to message me at Twitter...yes, I want to meet & you know who I'm talking to!

Love,
Lou